Straight from the Heart

I feel bad. There are so many people I’ve helped, but there are so many who are not whole yet. I feel bad that they aren’t whole. I want them to be free, to be whole, but they are not this way yet. We didn’t finish. Either they weren’t ready to finish or were not available. I would like to help them now to finish what they began, to become whole, but I am doing sessions with others now. So, I will feel bad if I stop working with the others also. So, it seems like I will feel bad no matter what I do. Is there really no way to delight in the work of my hands? Is it really that bad? Shouldn’t I rejoice in what God has done? Isn’t it Satan that wants me to focus on what is unfinished instead of delighting in what has been accomplished? It is he that wants me to be discouraged and to quit. Surely it is not God that drags me down. Would those I helped agree with me that the work of my hands is futile? No, they praise God and they thank me. They cannot deny what God has done in their life and they also cannot deny that they are not finished, that there are things from the past that still haunt them, so they cannot deny that they also are still longing to be completely free, to be completely whole. But they now have hope, they have tasted and now know there is a way to be free, to experience abundant life in any circumstance, so they wait but not empty-handed, for they have faith. Rejoice, my soul rejoice! And pray, for the harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. And surely others can help them to finish, to become whole, not just me. Is it not a work by God’s Spirit? Or am I now their savior?

Mike Banker 2014.11.25